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Name: Sarah
Birthday: 12/17/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: talking bout life, being sarcastic, making people laugh, people watching, coffee shops, checking xanga/facebook too often, nature, road trips, quotes, rolling my eyes, listening to music, thunderstorms, lakes, lemonade, law and order:svu, swimming, talking bout memories, quote sheets, CAMP, cooking, sunsets on Lake Andrew, cheap movies, getting new pictures, margaritas
Occupation: Student
Industry: Legal
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AIM:  spaige987
MSN: psarah03@hotmail.com
Member Since:
12/6/2005
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| i don't believe i've cried this much in a really long time.
i always thought i'd achieve big goals. i had big dreams. and i'm watching everyone else live them.
being w/ someone who loves/likes them.
being secure.
being happy.
not feeling ashamed...
i wonder what those feelings are like....
i have so much pain, but i guess thats where i find my strength.
someday. someday.
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| grab my hand. pull me close.press my hips against yoursand kiss me like you mean it.
i had a dream that we never made a mistake.
is this where we have to make all these mistakes
and in the end it leads us back to each other?
maybe... maybe not...
when the power of love
overcomes the love of power
the world will know peace.
-jimmy hendrix
this reminds me of a book that i'm reading... what if life was like this?
Disappearing
The day he first told me he was starting to disappear I didn't believe
him & so he stopped & held his hand up to the sun & it was
like thin paper in the light & finally I said you seem very calm
for a man who is disappearing & he said it was a relief after all
those years of trying to keep the pieces of his life in one place.
Later on, I went to see him again & as I was leaving, he put a
package in my hand. This is the last piece of my life, he said, take
good care of it & then he smiled & was gone & the room
filled with the sound of the wind & when I opened the package there
was nothing there & I thought there must be some mistake or maybe I
dropped it & I got down on my hands & knees & looked until
the light began to fade & then slowly I felt the pieces of my life
fall away gently & suddenly I understood what he meant & I lay
there for a long time crying & laughing at the same time.
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| here are some cool bumper stickers from facebook-
when the rest of the world walks out.
i'll still be here.
i promise.
sometimes two people have to fall
apart to realize how much they need to
fall back together.
many people have told me
i've changed but...
i think i just found myself.
things change
friends leave.
life doesn't stop for anybody.
imprefection is beauty. madness is
genius and its better to be absolutely
rediculous than absolutely boring
-marilyn monroe
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| my old life.
its funny... i wish my life was the way it used to be.
back when i had "crushes" that meant nothing... back when my heart was just getting used to be alone. and learning that that is the best way to live life. i'm so sad. i'm so unhinged in my mind. i wish someone would take me, kiss me, and show me that i'm better off...
the part that hurts my heart the most is he is leaving. for iraq. i wish we could be normal ppl. we could not piss each other off soooo much. mostly, i wish he would have listened to me. to leave me alone. i've loved him since the beginning... he's who i feel comfortable with. he's who makes me feel like i have a purpose. but... its not real. there HAS to be someone better. someone who can see that i'm great. someone who cares enough to put aside their own needs and watch out for me. right? ugh. this is said a MILLION times by me. he'll learn to love me. and hopefully at that point i'll still be there. then again, you can't make someone love you.
i'm scared for him...
i'm scared for me...
this would be sad if this was suppose to be and in the end it wasn't...
i feel so... empty.
i wish i could see him before he left... but i get the feeling i won't have the chance.
what have i done?
he means the world to me... and yet, i've fucked it up. fucked it up.
i wish he could see me. and see how hurt i am and how sorry i am. someday. someday soon. god has plans. right?
but for now. i need a hug. and a prayer. and so does he. i wish we could help each other.
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"as we grow up, we learn
that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down
probably will. you will have your heart broken probably more than once
and it's harder every time. you'll break hearts too, so remember how it
felt when yours was broken. you'll fight with your best friend. you'll
blame a new love for things an old one did. you'll cry because time is
passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. so take
too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt
because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness
you'll never get back."
:(
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